ugh i can tell this is going to be one of those times the words just don't come.  i'm exhausted, i'm sure that's the reason.  i'm struggling to remember why exactly i felt the need to come back home today.  pretty much just to get some laundry i left here and my cd-r's.  i was in such a great mood all day until i got here, and then for no reason at all i started feeling grumpy and pissed off.  exhausted, yeah, but i don't usually let that dictate my mood.  maybe it has something to do with wedding crashers being such a disappointment, and maybe it has something to do with charlie and the chocolate factory boring me into complete submission.  i wasn't planning to stay here tomorrow, so i didn't bring my phone charger and the thing is going to be dead before i go to bed.  can i find something else to bitch about?  earlier shea said we had only ten more days in our house, and it just made me so happy to hear that.  i knew it was getting pretty close, but i hadn't begun the countdown.  it's going to go quickly, and then it'll be only a matter of days before newtown.  more than anything i think i'm just really yearning for some stability, some certainty of where i'm going to be and some routine.  of course i'll get tired of that after about a week, but i've been back and forth between lexington and southgate too much this summer.  i want to be rooted firmly in lexington with my friends close by and free to live freely.

any second now, any second

chris